With all the negative things I have been through these past few months, I often wonder whether the universe has something against me. Maybe some cosmic, karmic revenge from a past life or something voodoo mumbo jumbo that I am positively clueless about. Sounds out of this world? Perhaps I am simply grasping for answers out of thin air because simple logic can't explain all the misfortune that have come way lately.

(Forgive me if I am saying a lot of rubbish that goes way past your head. My brain is just filled with stress and problems that I simply find it hard to express myself.)

Earlier I received a text message from mom telling me that she has to be confined at the orthopedic hospital due to her sore back. Honestly it wouldn't have been such a big deal, but she's been to the hospital not once, not twice, but five times already since the middle of last year. Can you blame me if I am feeling so stressed out at the moment? I am leaving my dad out of the equation for he can't be relied on matters like this. I will have to bear this burden alone.

Of course this had to happen on the week that we were supposed to be moving houses. Packing all our things and appliances has been stressful enough without this medical emergency.

Work used to be my solace from problems. I devote myself to it and for a few hours a day I just devote myself to it and shut all the distractions in my life. But it's not working for me anymore. I have dozens of custom term papers that I should be working on but I couldn't get my mind to function.

I am just simply so very tired of dealing with all these craziness. If I could just flick my finger to make them all disappear, I would have done it already long before.